helloo.

I wrote you something pretty,
But why?

Haze

One last deep breath.
They will be here soon,
I need to make sure its all gone by then.
Nah, they will be a while,
There is time for another.
I sit, legs crossed, in the middle of an oval,
It's pretty dark. Singing to myself,
Breathing it all in.
I think I miss something...

Old Habits

My temptress...
I'm so ready to embrace you,
But so afraid of what you will do to me.
One step at a time,
Someone pass a light

Thoughts

I' m trying so hard but I cant move on,
I cant stop thinking about you.
Every moment I feel something powerful,
It turs to you.

And I don't believe in chance...

Oh but what I'd give for another one.

Prayer

I was weak and I fell for you,
On the first night you whispered those words in my ear.
I love you...
Return to me,
So we can go back to how it was in the beginning.
Endless starry nights and the sweetest taste in the air,
My head on your shoulder,
Crying.
Tears and blood.
That is all it ever was.
I hate you.
Thank you god for giving me this oppurtunity, to do what has been done before. To think what has been explained, to see what can be faked, to hear what means nothing. Today I suffer, knowing that tomorrow I will be happy. And the next day, I will die. Will I remember what you put my through, and for what it was for?

The Demon Inside Me

It's funny how your past is a part of you, bound to catch up to you. Each day that passed i was running further away from the person I was. But it only took one long inside myself to know that he was always there, taunting me in each breath. I've become something far greater than him, and now I know that I can drive him away for good. The simplicity of melodies in my head, driven to strength by the complexity of their execution, causing the demon inside me to wither in pain and suffering. The suffering of failure. It's something to know that somewhere in this stainless world there is a person who's sole intent is to undermine your sanity, something more to know he lives inside you. So armed with the countless weaving threads of notes in my ears, touching my lips, twitching my fingers, I forced him out of my body, out of me, forever. With a sickening retch and a gruesome cough, vomit covers the floor in front of me. Tears stream down my cheeks, my whole body shakes violently, my fingers tracing endless patterns on my thigh. With a final sob, I turn and walk away, back to where i began, the sun finally breaching the night's oppression. This demon I hated, this god that I trusted, I am alone once more. Despite the overwhelming weight lifted off my shoulders, I find that my heart now aches for the missing part of me. The part that I loved, the part that slowly ate away at me from inside. Now i wonder, who did I really leave behind in that mess of bile? The demon? Or the real me? What am I now?

Clean Slate

Tear down all you know,
Start over,
Take yourself back to the beginning,
Try again,
Change everything about yourself,
I'll see where it gets me..