Throat

Choking,
I try and tell someone before I fall.
I always wanted my passing to be a big deal,
Then everyone would now how much pain I was going through,
But know I now that I will die alone,
And no one will even notive until many weeks later.
Isn't it perfect,
Isn't it beautiful,
Isn't it tragic?
I don't care anymore,
I just want to die.